Thursday, December 23, 2010
Visits from time to time..
I realized over the past week why visits are important, especially when they're from people whom you don't get to see very often.
They bring a new perspective into things in your life that you've been so absorbed in and sometimes what they see from that different angle can be really important.
No wonder there's so many diplomats visiting here and there.
I was called in for a talk, about something that i guess was subconscious there, but was suppressed because of how things have been for awhile.
It revealed to me the hurt of a person close to me. It connected me to a point of view that I should have seen from but didn't.
Little did I know that I was actually the pivot in which a decision balanced on.
Now that options were presented, a choice has to be made soon. Else the quiet suffering continues.
It's difficult because I'm in the middle of it, because I don't want to cause too much hurt to either sides.
I always thought that it was their business to close things up, but I didn't know that I had an indirect stake in it.
Bottom line... things need to be done.
P.S: Hi Nicky =)
Sunday, October 4, 2009
'Lau Yi' 2006 CNY
'Lau Ma' 2006 CNY
'Lau Ma' 2007 CNY
'Lau Yi' 2007 CNY
I snapped these shots during CNY a few years back, when there were still people coming to my house to bai fang and stuff. I think i only have so many of their photos.
I grew up in their company and care. I really don't think words can describe how much i owe to them for my upbringing. My Lau Ma litterally spoonfed me when i was young, washed all my clothes and provided me breakfast, lunch and dinner. When i was bored i played cards with my lau yi, who taught me how to play blackjack and stuff like that. (haha)
Likewise, as i got older (like, secondary - jc old), my Lau Ma still woke up at 5.45am everyday to prepare a simple cup of milo and two slices of bread with butter before i left the house. She still continued to wash my clothes for me, and kept the house tidy and neat everyday.
how old are they now? Mmmm. 96 and 91? I think so.
For me, looking at them puts a smile on my face, because i don't get to see them everyday now.
They're staying at a home and I visit them once every weekend. Now I'm the one who buys them food and try to make them happy just for that near one-hour of visit.
No, not many visit them anymore and i doubt they even have a great care. But definitely not me, cos i just owe to much to them and love them to much to just let them go.
Monday, September 28, 2009
it's coming!
something to make you smile is coming......
re-visit on the.... 3rd oct 2009!
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
I think for some of us, after finishing our A levels and somehow spent the last six months doing whatever we have been doing, we have arrived at such a time that we suddenly look back and reflect on what we've been doing all these while.
Not that we don't look back at other times, but it's just that this time, we've a significantly longer break till what happens to us next as compared to previous times. So long that in this period of time, we may have already cultivated a totally different lifestyle from the school-going us of the past.
It used to be, for most of our lives, a routine school day, 5 days a week, with the anticipated weekends and school breaks. You study the crap outta yourself during school, fall asleep during lectures, trying to finish unfinished homework last minute, hoping not to get screwed for handing in incomplete or half done work. Then after the mind busting HALF day of school you come to the next half of CCA that wears you out even more physically, (unless of course you're in like chess or robotics or those stuffs).
At the end of the day you feel so shagged out that you just wanna go home, eat and sleep - not forgetting the couple of hours on the internet or games between dinner and sleeping. Maybe there'll even be time to squeeze in homework time. Haha.
I bet you're thinking along the lines of : 'Those were the times.'
I remember how i wished school to end, to not have to wake up every morning needing to get to school before i'm late, how i wished to be able to do what i want and not just work my brains out for some piece of paper with a specific letter 'A'.
But I sort of miss the other stuff that comes with that crap.
Expeditions, sitting at the canteen, the friday night dinners, School holidays.
But the only constant in life is ironically change. Opportunities come and go, friends come and go (some will stay, those are the ones you gotta hold on to with whatever sincerity and trust you have). Your environment changes: The singapore you were living in, the people you mixed with, may have to change. You're mostly no longer a teenager, you're going through the transition into adult life.
OMG, it sounds like one of the articles talking about the transitional phase from teen to adult in one of the exams.
My friends, the past is the past. Sounds sad aint it. However much you wished it to come back, it will never.
BUT.
The past can offer us some help. Yes, you must never, never forget what you started out and wished for in the past. Many times, we get so caught up in the moment, that we loose our forus of where we're heading in life. The values that we learnt, the goals that we set out for ourselves, the unbreakable spirit and determination that we had burning inside us when we were younger.
It's no doubt that we will be swayed from what we wanted, but we can always redirect ourselves the right way again.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Hi blog.
You're gonna be more abandoned now.
But it's okay.
I'll still visit sometimes. haha.
Hello you unexpected visitor who asks me to update but i said i have nothing i wish to update here about.yes, YOU nicky. haha.
Don't be too sad. =)
My thumbdrive still with you! go look at what's inside!
And look forward to a new chapter each week!
see you soooon =)
Saturday, February 21, 2009
11.16 for 2.4?!
Omg. someone please take a whip and make me run. (jerome excluded from this offer)
Go batch 11! Raise batch 12 up well! =)
And I believe that this coming march xp.... will be heavy. On the heart.
Who needs tissues in the rainforest?
'I like to walk in the rain because no one will know when i cry' or something like that, idea is there.
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